I slept this day (2am) thinking about many things, as with most of my pre-hibernation episodes (I don’t sleep. I hibernate.).
As always, I thought that sleep would finally give me something I couldn’t have in this world: peace.
And for a moment, my brain finally relented, and I was able to enjoy the few hours of sleep that I had.
When I woke up though, my thoughts came back. I’m pretty sure they were more excited than I was to hear my defeaning alarm.
I knew my time of peace ceased the moment I realized J was daydreaming. Because yes, I think most of my thoughts come in the form of daydreams.
I have this person in my mind (pretty sure that was me; or the better version of myself), living the life I couldn’t live. Being with people I couldn’t be with.
Do you have that kind of person on your mind, too?
Mos of the time I find myself watching (daydreaming) this person live their life, while neglecting the world I’m living in. This is where the problem arises.
Okay. I need to cut this rant off now. I have got to go to school.
I think I need help.