I badly want to go to a mental health professional and seek help (tomorrow) already.
But my mind says I don’t need it at all.
It tells me to just suck it up and get on with my life. Who needs therapy when you can think your way out of depression?
The problem is that I can’t just “suck it up”, “get on with it”, and just “think my way out of my depression.”
I would if I could, and so would the others who are suffering the same way as I am.
I’m all for recovery. I think I’m ready to admit to myself that yes, indeed, I do need professional help.
But half of me wants to just lie in bed, not even bother go talk to someone, and think of ways on how I’d get out of this nasty situation. All by myself.
Should I beg my mind to just shut up, and try seeking external help for once?