An attempt to make myself believe that everything is going to be okay.

You know what, you can do it.

You may not do it now, but you’ll be able to do it eventually.

You can beat depression, with your own ways.

You can beat depression, in your own time.

You can beat depression, with or without others.

But you can never beat it without your heart and mind, and your whole being, invested in this battle.

You have to fight with what you have to win all that is rightfully yours: your life.

Kill (depression) or be killed. Beat it or be beaten up (does this mantra even work?)

 

Don’t be afraid of relapses. Well okay, maybe it’s okay to be scared.. But the thing is, they’re relapses. You’re having relapses because you’re going up. And that’s the important part: the going up part. It means your going somewhere (good). You can’t experience a bump in the road if you’re not moving.

So what if you fail again?

You’ll have other opportunities to get up.

You can get up, and you need to get up, not to prove to the whole world that you can stand on your own, but to prove to yourself that you’re worth something, something not even the world would understand.

Stand up; not for others, but for yourself. Because in the end, it will be you who would be able to see what it’s like up there, with your head in the clouds of success and triumph against depression.

 

You’re in a dark place right now, yes. But you have with you people who support you. Like fireflies, stars, and the moon at night, they will guide you to your destination: recovery.

Don’t be afraid to follow them.

 

You may not believe a word I am saying, and it’s okay. I guess.

You just have to believe in yourself.

Or maybe that’s hard to do too.

People who support you will understand.

Best thing I have up my sleeve is this:

Hold on. Hang in there.

Those old rusty words. How many times have you heard it now?

Then again, maybe even others don’t have better words than this.

It’s also true, you know.

You have to hold on. Only you can save yourself. No matter how many people would tell you they would help you, if you let yourself fall, or jump, or…. just… die, they will not be able to do anything about it.

So hold on a little longer. Stay. Even for a few days more. See what happens.

Just stay.

 

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