Pausing time to let myself heal Don’t want to deal with how I feel I want Time to leave me be Well, I guess, procrastination is the key. But I know that a time will come For me to face the things I’m hiding from But until such time I will just run and do […]
Originally posted on 42 Days Younger than Kylie:
Whatever happens I will survive Whatever I do I will stay alive Whatever I feel I will endure Whatever I seek will reach my shore . [ thankyou to Tricia for introducing the word Fearward to me ]
Enrollment tomorrow. Just thinking about it makes me feel sick. I really feel like throwing up right now. I’m blaming my anxiety for this. But I guess I can get through this. After all, this would just be the first of many more situations I have to get through this school year in order […]
How long must you keep on running away from me Only to come back when I’m too tired to look up and see The skies turning blue while the sun starts to shine And the moon retiring to its home tired of listening to my whine I want the moon to watch over me […]
Been lost for days on end Didn’t know what message to send My story has not that much worth In telling people I don’t see the And I bet you too can’t see it. – CL Jul26’14
I don’t want to be hugged. All I can think of when I think about being hugged is ‘ew’, not because I’m grossed out by it, but because I don’t know how to respond to it. I guess my more appropriate response to a hug (if you ask me) would be “please don’t touch me. […]
It’s not happiness I am struggling to find, it’s purpose. And I want that purpose to have a meaning. I want to have a purpose in life that means something to me. After days of moping around, not getting out of bed, not checking email (which I highly regret), not talking to any of my […]
I badly want to go to a mental health professional and seek help (tomorrow) already. But my mind says I don’t need it at all. It tells me to just suck it up and get on with my life. Who needs therapy when you can think your way out of depression? The problem is that […]
I guess one of the causes (as I’m sure there are many) of my depression is my education. I like to learn things, I do. Try (just try, no pressure) to discover things and life beyond my comprehension, even. But, as with any other person, there are just certain things we’d like to study […]
Barely six hours ago, I was already contemplating on how to say goodbye to this world. Now, I’m in a bed (not my bed because my room needs cleaning), still blogging, drinking coffee, and being hopeful about life. Well, not in all aspects of my life. I still hate the idea of going back to […]
