It’s been a while since I last vented out my rants in written form.
But then again, I have nothing to rant about.
Yes, as surprising as it may seem, I am, not in a bad place right now.
I can even go far as to say I am quite happy.
Or not. Can’t say I’m happy, as I have long forgotten how happiness feels.
But I’m content. I guess it’s safe to say I’m on a neutral land. I’m not sad, nor happy. But it’s something, I guess.
I know this is not going to last. I know I’m going to revert back to my depressive state. I don’t think, I know. Because this is how it always goes. Put me in a less stressful situation and I become calm. Give me not-so-good event and I come crashing down in despair again.
It’s too much, to even think about what’s going to happen.
So for now, I guess, I’m going to have to be content on this neutral land.